Guest 20: A 30-year-old female writer

The time spent alone throughout most of my twenties was never a lonely experience.

For someone who spent the majority of her twenties without a boyfriend, romantic partners seemed like 'shackles' that would only hold her back. She focused on her work and strove to stand on her own two feet, distancing herself from love. We look back at her state of mind and how she responded when a man ten years younger began to approach her with such fervor.

Her relationship now seems to be in a complex state that is invisible from the outside.

What started as a workplace romance eventually turned into a relationship after she gave in. However, even though they appear to have broken up to the outside world, the connection persists, leaving her feeling conflicted. Through her talk about the fear of becoming too deeply involved and her tendency to give too much to her partners, the deep-seated concern she grapples with comes to the surface.

Days spent thinking about self-control.

She struggles with a tendency to become strongly dependent on others once a relationship begins. Her desire to achieve better self-control while objectively observing herself is something many listeners will surely resonate with. What is her personal form of love hidden behind the word 'sincerity'? Please listen to the full episode for the deeper conversation.